i can't believe how much has changed and it hasn't even been a year...
i can't believe it hasn't been a year since i last cut. i thought it had been a lot longer ... only two days off.
They disappear when the music starts playing
new blog: http://www.livejournal.com/users/b0rn2be/
i can't believe the place i was in when i wrote these ...

so.. i almost died today. the bus. yeah. it wasnt pleasant.

i saw the village on the weekend. it is now my favourite movie. i cant explain how joaquin phoenix is attractive but he his soooooooooooooo beautiful. and bryce howard is a good actress. shes cool now.

throw rocks at them.

yeah. new years.. christmas.. yeah. not covering those subjects today.. dont really know what im gonna write about so.. yeah. my house is a maze of wires and comp equipment. we got a new one and we're networking but its never gonna work out lol.

coma girl - Joe Srummer & the Mescaleros

I was crawling through a festival way out west
i was thinking about love and the acid test
but first i got real dizzy with a real rockin' gang
then i saw the coma girl, on the excitement gang

and the rain came in from the wide blue yonder
through all the stages, i wandered

oh coma girl, on the excitment gang
mona lisa, on a motorcylce gang
coma girl, coma girl

The coma girl was beating with the oil drum gang
some fast food fanatics was burning down a burger van
somebody was waling off their head
oh!
Nobody was rippin the teen scene dead

and the rain, came in from the wide blue yonder
i thought you and me might wander...

oh coma girl, on the excitement gang
mona lisa, on a motorcycle gang
coma girl


And then the nineteenth hour was falling upon desolation row
some outlaw band, had the last drop on the go
lets siphon up some gas!! lets get this show on the road!!
said the coma girl, to the excitement gang
Into action , everybody sprang
and the oil drums were beating out, doolang, doolang

coma girl on the excitment gang
mona lisa on a motorcycle gang

k. not a good... evening. thus far. thus who the fuck says thus. anyways. i think tim and i just got in our fist fight. exciting. i dont think i can go to the pen now. ill go cry instead... uhhh yeah so the fucking automated attendance machine called again today. they called yesterday. and im gonna effing rip on somebody. even though i already did. goddammit. im just a fuck up.

12/16/2004		6:32:35 PM		i will slaughter the effing automated attendance machine. and joe. {welcome to existence}		]●[--ǾЏΔΝ--]●[		heyy
12/16/2004		6:34:43 PM		]●[--ǾЏΔΝ--]●[		i will slaughter the effing automated attendance machine. and joe. {welcome to existence}		_auto-message: hello.
12/16/2004		6:35:48 PM		i will slaughter the effing automated attendance machine. and joe. {welcome to existence}		]●[--ǾЏΔΝ--]●[		effer. you know, if you dont want to talk to me just fucking say so because i am sooo not in the mood
12/16/2004		6:36:13 PM		]●[--ǾЏΔΝ--]●[		i will slaughter the effing automated attendance machine. and joe. {welcome to existence}		jeezus what the hell was that for
12/16/2004		6:36:20 PM		]●[--ǾЏΔΝ--]●[		i will slaughter the effing automated attendance machine. and joe. {welcome to existence}		fine w/e

well k the new history thing is just fucked but anyways. then he blocked me.

"Letters To God"

caught off guard
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take just one lifetime and i

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

i should've asked
i could've helped
at least a fucking 1,000 times before
will this offer get me in
or does it prove that they gave more and i

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

and i
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

and i
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

im inflammed.

i took death pictures with carly lol. blood pictures actually because we were both still alive. k.

camp jinx

nothing about it just a reminder that it exists.

this is my story. i smell pizza. yummy...anyways...

there once was a stupid hanging plant in the corner of the library hanging from the ceiling that no one ever noticed. it was crooked and dusty. the ropes were decreped and looked like they are about to break. underneath of the hanging plant was an ugly flower plant that was fake. it is burgendyish and the fake flowers matched the pot it was ..is in.  mrs. patterson probably waters it because many students have witnessed her watering fake plants. shes afraid it might die. and now carly thinks im ditching her because i have a bad memory.but i actually am ditching her... dont  tell her that though cause she is annoying and dumb. ps that was carly.

i want free pizza
 if you could see me right now im killing the keyboard. ytferdftgvhbkflj.hdbgsf die carly die. i want some borstplaat.

"im making music" - carly making the computer beep. lol

as rachael is falling asleep with stacy playing with her hair. yeah. its boring when you dont have anything to do.

   There once was a not so little girl. she was a loser ... is ... a loser.. who wrote ... writes ... stories about stupid things such as not so little loser girl ... who writes ... okay THE END. BY CARLY aka Not So Little Loser Girl (Who Writes)

yeah...

well. lots of shit going on. joe yelled at us lowly members of student council on tuesday. and volleyball. minimal court time pour moi, mais je suis garanti un endroit sur l'équipe l'année prochaine. yes, we are all very proud of the fact that weenie can speak en français.

ill continue this later... lol


I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are
Creeping about
These people are
Freaking me out (these days)

It’s getting hectic everywhere that I go
They won’t leave me alone
There’s things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid of all the people I meet
Why are they talking to me?
And why can’t anyone see

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x6]

I rock a
Lawsuit when I’m going to court
A white suit when I’m gettin’ divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
And my birthday suit when I’m home alone
Talkin’ on the phone
Got an interview
With the rolling stone
They’re saying
“Now you’re rich and
Now you’re famous
Fake ass girls all know your names and
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Your first hit aren’t you ashamed?”
Of the life [x2]
Of the life we’re livin’

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Stop your messin’ around boy
Better think of your future
Better make some good plans boy
Said everyone of my teachers

Lookout
You better play it safe
You never know what hard times will come your way
We say
Where we’re coming from
We’ve already seen
The worst that this life can bring

Now we expect it everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live [x3]

I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]

I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Just wanna live [x3]
Don’t really care about what happens to me

I just wanna live

so... cancel that year thing.

i dont know. it was like the only thing i could do. i tried to cover it up with cover up... heh. that didnt work. its not like anyone's going to notice anyways. no one noticed in sixth grade so whats different about eleventh (god im getting old). well... matt knew. but that doesnt matter.

i just hope it fades soon...